Rainbows and Unicorns.

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I think I promised rainbows and unicorns in my next post. Well here they are!



The roller coaster hasn't stopped, but I'm happy to report there have been more WEEEE! moments. Where your hands are in the air and your grin is so big it can't be anything but contagious. I owe many of those moments to my family and some of my friends. But also to myself. It sounds weird to say, but I'm honestly just proud of myself. I'm proud that I keep fighting. It's not always pretty and sometimes it involves ugly cries, but I'm still here. 

Through trial and error we've found a recipe that seems to be working and helping. Each day gets better. I'm still incredibly sensitive and it doesn't take much to set me off. But I'm getting better at identifying the what and fixing it. 

A few weeks ago I felt like dancing (okay, so not uncommon exactly). But I decided to post it on Tik Tok with my story, which is terrifying, but I did it. I've been trying more to just let go and be in the moment, whatever that is. And it's often weird and uncomfortable, but that's how growth happens, right? Not only that, but I truly want to bring awareness and help. I will likely have challenges the rest of my life, but that doesn't mean that I can't still live my life to the fullest I possibly can. I'm working. I'm momming. I'm spending time with friends and family. I have bad days, but they aren't ALL bad days anymore. And that's the win I need to keep focusing on. So to anyone out there who needs to hear it... YOU ARE WORTH IT! Keep fighting. Keep living. Be kind to yourself. Tomorrow is a new day. There might even be rainbows and unicorns in it!

Here's my video. Hopefully it works. 
Dancing in my living room!

Love you all!
Ash




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