Sunshine Journal

Our bodies are fascinating. There's is no doubt about it. The things it can do, the way it sends you signals, and so on. I honestly think it's magic how it all works in the first place. But despite this we all obviously get incredibly frustrated when it doesn't work how we want it to. But really.. it has so many moving parts and functions. It's crazy. So I've obviously talked about floating multiple times already and I'm going to talk about it again. So if you don't want to read about it, please stop here ;) My month membership ended last week and I was in a pickle because I knew this week would be busy with different things going on and next week I'd be gone on vacation. And if I'm going to pay hundreds of dollars for something I want to get as much use out of it as possible. So I opted to not renew it right away knowing I would once I got back from vacation. I knew this was risky and I'd likely have to buy one float this week to get by... w...

This is hard. There isn’t a written manual for life. I suppose there are some available, but every situation is so unique that there isn’t a specific guide for each of is. We have to figure that out on our own. There are similar situations and ways to relate to each other to help us all through it. And some kindred spirits that have a special way of supporting people even if they aren’t in their shoes. But sometimes, it’s still not enough. You know how you can always say to yourself that someone is worse off than you so we should count our blessings? That is true. But it also doesn’t mean that whatever each of us is going through isn’t significant or hard. And I think all of us sometimes just need validation of that. That is what therapists do. They listen and help validate how you’re feeling. And it feels so good. I read a story this morning in the news about a woman who lost her entire family in a duck boat accident. I almost cried. I probably should hav...

This morning when I woke up I felt like I was radioactive. It's the most bizarre feeling. There is pain all over and you just feel like it's radiating and creating a glow all over your body. It's a bit paralyzing. I have to give mental pep talks and direction. Ashlee, you must roll over and get your CBD oil. Take the oil and lay there until you can move again. Seems so simple, yet in the moment it still takes me a few minutes to finally reach over. And then I just think... seriously, this is ridiculous. Are you imagining this? No. If you were imagining this you would just move. Isn't it fun talking to yourself? We can be so annoying. It's been a busy week. We started putting our house back together last Saturday. Thankful for those who showed up to help. Extra kudos to my mom, she has been our house project superhero! Love her to pieces! I did the best I could, but still wished I could have done more. Ben constantly tells me not to be so hard on myself, but it...